Why Now???

On April 26, 2011, I became a widow -- a title I NEVER wanted to have.  It is a title that I know is part of life.  Dying is part of living.  If you have Jesus living in your heart, dying is something that does not scare you.  I'm not afraid to die and I know that my hubby was not afraid to die.  This brings me great, great comfort.

So why now?  Why after six years have I decided to start a blog to talk about this?  In those early days, I was not ready to really discuss a lot of things -- the emotions, the pain that I was experiencing but I think it's time.  If my broken heart, those gallons and gallons of tears, the many different emotions, and the fight to keep going on can help another person, then that is what I want to do.  I want to share God's mercy and grace and my personal experience in hopes that it will spur another person on to continue to make the best of their life after they have lost their best friend.

Perhaps my experience in the valley will let another know that they are not crazy -- these emotions and feelings are real.  If we are believers in God, we have the assurance that we are never alone.  But, sometimes just knowing there are others who have experienced the valley, how they may have dealt with their pain brings hope and comfort.

April 26, 2017, marks six years since he went home to Jesus.  I know he would be very, very upset if he knew that I was sad and cried every single day.  He would not want this -- in fact, he told me on several occasions -- "if I go before you, you and I both know that I'll be the lucky one.  I'll be the one in Heaven and you will be left in this cruel world.  I want you to be happy and continue living your life and please don't sit around and grieve for me."   That's exactly what I have been doing -- sitting around, grieving, having pity parties.  With God's Mercy and Grace, I am determined to become the woman God wants me to be.  

So stay tuned....I'll be sharing many things with you on this journey called "Grief".  Some stories will be funny and/or silly.  Some of them will be sad and full of raw emotion, but folks that is life and I pray, maybe, just maybe, these writings will bring some comfort to the brokenhearted.  May you each have a blessed day.

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand...  Isaiah 41:10